Love… In the last six months I have realised how devastating love can be.

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Am I a fan? Hell no!

But if I haven’t dealt with the pain of losing love am I a closet fan? I just don’t know.

My girlfriend whoops lol EX wrote a poem for my birthday a long time ago. “Are you ready for love because I am ready?”. In hindsight I think she was ready in heart but not in mind. As for me I was neither. But what this girl did was truly amazing she forced me to open up my heart to love. I still can’t say if I am 100% sure that was a good thing. Because as much as the joy is priceless, the pain is enduring and in my opinion more consuming. But does this mean I don’t want love in my life? Well … know.

Its like a drug you see, Heroina… the love drug. Drugs aren’t necessarily good for you however. That was my conclusion and the reason I am currently out of a relationship. But I am an addict for this love so what to do.

I have seen a lot of people devastated by love and judging by the tunes I hear on the radio there are a lot more “devastatees” too. As a mathematician I look at the stats. On average I reckon people go through at least 4 or 5 say 5 serious relationships before they settle down with THE ONE. Now in the UK roughly 50% of marriages end in divorce. Add to that a speculative figure that at least 40% of the remaining marriages that don’t end in divorce are unhappy ones (come on we can all see those ropy couples) that means each relationship you engage in has a 4% chance of really ending in a completely happy relationship.

OK I know that figure is biased based on my pessimism but we can all agree that there is some element of truth in this hypothesis.

But I have become a true romantic as a result of one encounter with love. Have you found your 4%? One in twenty five chance I say. F*ck it! If you’re a sucker for love who cares ay, lets keep searching?

Find it and never let it go